Its a swedish website, but this blog is in English, tough if nobody likes it, thats life.

The whole blog phenomenom  has been something I've never really gotten involved in it. It was seeing somebody elses blog, that has helped me on the way to finding somewhere to write my opinion on the world.

So who am I? And what is this? Who really knows, this could be my voyage to find myself, or to find my place in society.

I think lately, in the last three months, things have fallen away for me, from working towards my dream life, to sort of sitting in limbo. It's been an unusual turn, and rather difficult to deal with, especially given the circumstances I find myself in.

So it has been with this in mind that I have surrounded myself with people who had alterior motives. The type of people whom I had managed to discard whilst being with Susanna, and it has been that, when i needed people to lean on the most, that I have let myself down in my judgement. It has brought me to the decision to discard those people, quite similarly to how one discards rubbish, and have simply cut them out of my life.

It has left me a little bit lonely, but a little less stressed. I sit here on the other side of the world from everything I know, which is not easy. Sure, I have people whom I associate with, and even people I would call friends, but there's that little extra missing for me to trust someone, the trust I shared with someone for the past three years.

So I guess thats a short description of my current situation. And its the situations I find myself in that affect my point of views on life and who we are as people.

If anyone is crazy enough to read this, the blog will come to include poetry (mine naturally) and philosophies as well as descriptions of whats happening in my life.

 

Leileen

19 november 2008 01:04

:) Sweetie.

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