Had a rough day today, so depression food kicked in a little. Had a korv, and a beer, although otherwise kept to the program. Shouldn't affect my weight too much, and by last check I still think I'll be dropping when I weigh in again tomorrow.

Things haven't fallen my way today, as it sometimes happens. I think a big problem with my weight is the fact that I eat when I'm depressed, and I've been depressed a lot lately. I had a 5 day period where everything seemed to be getting better, and the weight fell away like nothing else, and everything was easy, but back to the grind. Tomorrow I have a free day after 8am, so basically going to clean the house, play with the dog when he comes around and sleep, nothing but sleep.

I'm not quite sure why or how it  happens, but I seem to be a magnet for manipulative and dishonest people.

Again I've allowed myself to be suckered in and am growing to be tired of it. All I want from a person is to be honest, upfront and NO FUCKING BULLSHIT! Is it really so much to ask? I have a sign on me somewhere that says "yes, please take advantage of the fact that I'm easily lured, and will probably sacrifice something close to me just to feel like someone cares about me, so please, come on in, take what you want, and just leave me standing here looking like a fool again"

So, back to my own little shell again, I don't need you, and I don't need anyone, I'm living here on my own, on the other side of the world from anyone who I would call friends or family, and I'm starting to get used to being on my own.

And I don't care if you read this or not. You haven't hurt me, just disappointed me, I had thought and hoped you were someone you weren't