Its been a tough and, somewhat, lonely weekend. When I haven't been working, I've been on my own, asides from Friday evening where I had a little company until 8pm

Its also been a weekend of tough decisions, one of which was harder than the rest. I broke off contact with someone who, at one point, I had great hopes for, but turned out to not be what I had first expected. It's not often that I get something so wrong when it comes to evaluating a person, but this time I think it might have been a miss. The person in question is a nice person, there's no doubt there. Its just that they don't have the self-belief, nor the honesty or interest, to warrant a part in my life. It's a sad thing, but its time for me to move on and remember the few good times.

There has been a lot of cutting away of people from my life, and in reality, outside of sport, there's only maybe 3 or 4 people left who I talk to regularly outside of work, and all but one are so  busy with their own lives to have the time to spend with "little old me".

The one thats left is definitely a wonderful person, they take great care to spend as much time with me as possible, and despite everything I do to make it difficult for them, they always put a smile on my face and I always feel the most relaxed in their company. I owe a great deal to them over the past 2 months, and hope that things continue, if they can't improve....

I hope to have a Valentine this year, I've never really bothered with it before, and maybe this time it could be fun :) I'm not sure if it will go ahead, but I hope so, the girl in mind deserves to be treated like a princess, even if it is just for one evening.....

 Otherwise not much to report, pleased that United won this weekend, although I missed the game, yet again. Back to work in 6 hours, so probably best to get some sleep.

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