Been a slow month this month...things just aren't really happening like I would have hoped... although thats not necessarily always bad.

New schema came out on Monday for work, and i was probably as annoyed as some of the worse-affected ones, because it means a large sacrifice in football. It's a sad thing, but I guess I have to pay the bills first.

Personal life is a bit of a rollercoaster, as it has been for quite a long time.

Some days I wish for home, and some days I realise that I have no home, and then the rest, there's no place I would rather be. Although the behaviour of some is starting to bring my "friendships" into question again. I was rather surprised at certain events recently regarding one friend, and have been left wondering. We've gone from such a large amount of communication to absolutely none more or less.

It's become difficult to have feelings for those who were close to me previously. One in particular, there's absolutely no feelings left. It's sad to give so much to something which no longer exists. Its like running up a mountain just to find the top fell away, and the achievements feel hollow, despite all we went through together.

Manchester in May is set, so looking forward to seeing my father again, he even invited someone along, which is a big thing (more because he even offered to pay!). To let someone into our family circle is a big thing for my family (especially when I had so much trouble fitting into that circle my whole life). Man Utd vs Man City seems on the cards, although it seems like we could be doing it difficult, since dads dragging his heels with the tickets.

Otherwise, not a great deal to report. Works ticking along, and life in general is "så där", so yeah. suppose another update will come when I feel the need :)

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