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Av Gary Fraser - 14 september 2009 22:59

Night times are the worst for me. I hate being alone at night.

The mind races with past events, future problems, stress, too much energy, problems I have now. Feelings for people, and quite simply, it amplifies how alone I feel here.

I love being in Sweden, but I hate feeling so isolated. I've over relied on someone and it feels like thats gone down the hole, despite my best attempts to save it, and the feelings I have. And even though I still feel that I'm independant, I feel the need to lean on someone sometimes, but unfortunately, the lack of trust means it's impossible.

Not exactly sure where to go from here, I got work permit issues, money issues, emotional problems, and trust problems. Not even the "closest" people around me here can I trust anymore it seems......


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Av Gary Fraser - 18 april 2010 20:53

I'm still sad, I dunno why, the anger seems to have faded now, so now I'm just sad. I don't tend to get angry about anything, mostly because there's so little passion left to get angry about things. Even after the car died in Morup, and it took nearl...

Av Gary Fraser - 17 april 2010 19:07

I coulda formatted it so that it actually looked half decent, but I can't be fucked. I don't blog anymore because I'm empty, there's not really a lot to say. I feel useless and basically like a machine. It feels like the spirit is crushed now. I miss...

Av Gary Fraser - 2 april 2010 16:40

Holding you in my arms As we laughed and danced and sang Waking beside you each day As the alarm on my telephone rang. Happiness was my friend I could never see you too soon You were the light against my darkness The flowers of summer w...

Av Gary Fraser - 28 mars 2010 03:20

I know you don't care, and I saw it on  your face when you cycled past, but I still am depressed because of you, I can't face the public, and I still want to come home and swallow a massive amount of pills and never wake up, just because you led me t...

Av Gary Fraser - 4 mars 2010 22:25

It's been a good day, but a stressful evening. People at work were saying I should have an inflyttningsfest and combine it with my birthday, at first I wasn't very keen on the idea, but after more and more said it would be a good idea, I decided to p...

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