For a day where nothing has really happened, its been a pretty bad day.

Fought with Sanna, yet again. It was my fault, and I can admit that, and have apologised. However, I've given up hope on fixing things with her. Any time we talk, there's hostility on one side or the other. I really miss what we had, but its obvious to me now that it won't ever happen again, simply because both sides don't want it, and no matter what, she wouldn't be prepared to open up for it again anyways. Just too much anger, too much hurt, caused by both.

Haven't left the apartment today, and haven't slept all night, so its been a full 24 hours without contact. Should have some drinks down at bulls tomorrow, although I dunno, everyone I've talked to this evening has had an "unwelcome" air. It's just me, I know but still.

Feeling more positive about work, writing applications is becoming easier, and the positive nature of the coach is catching....so there's hope yet.

Hoping to have a happier weekend than week in any case, next week I try and resolve when/if A-kassa is coming :)

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