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Av Gary Fraser - 30 oktober 2009 21:16

One of those tough days.....not much has really happened, and what has, has left me a bit deflated and flat.

Basically cleaned like mad this morning, since a guy from Folksam was coming around to address my bills. Which, when he arrived, did not, and only talked about Pension....so I was a bit pissed off about that. Ok then, went out to have our Weekly after works drinks at bulls, to find that just about no one of the regular 10 or so who usually come, showed up. So sat there with two that I sorta knew and 2 I'd never met before, for about an hour, before I got sick of it and came home. Was pissed off at basically throwing away 100kr.

Not much happening on the job front, and the more I try, the harder it seems to get. Dunno what to do to resolve it yet.

Sorta having a rough time with friends at the moment. Been left feeling as a time filler or substitute for boyfriends when they're not around (just without the sex). Can be a bit depressing and frustrating sometimes. Especially after 9 months where I'd been left feeling like I was a source of embarrassment, now I'm sorta something thats hidden away from friends, boyfriends or whatever.

Fucked if I know what to do to to feel better....going out tomorrow night and fully expect to get plastered, so anyone who gets drunk messages....sorry in advance! :)


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Av Gary Fraser - 18 april 2010 20:53

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