I have to admit, I'm somewhat of a massochist.

I enjoy causing myself hurt and pain, not physically, but mentally. I don't know why I do it, and I always have so many people to help me do it, how nice :)

When I'm on facebook, and i have a common friend with someone, I always check to see if she's one of the ones who "like" a status, and after that I'm just sad and angry. Have adopted a song which helps me deal with it, kindly shown to me by another "common friend".

Works finished for the week, sorta sad about it, I enjoy being at work, because it helps me forget about my life outside of work. I think it's going well, despite maybe being a little too outspoken for a newbie.

Dad sent some money today, so picked up a little alcohol, a few drunken nights lie ahead in waiting.

Pretty much asides from that, nothing is really happening, my life has absolutely no direction these days, maybe a new years wish is to get it going again sometime soon, forget about Sanna, and that our "relationship" or "beginning of a relationship" as she so nicely put it, even existed, and move on.

Happy new years to anyone who happens to read this.

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