It can be nice, instead of just sad, sometimes, to find out what people are really made of. Making promises, especially about "neutrality" and then being utterly and totally full of shit. But so be it. It was nice to figure it out sooner rather than later. At least this time it didn't take 9 months.

That asides, just a quiet day today, the novelty of snow is wearing off, and getting a bit tired of it and having to de-ice my car every goddamned morning. Nice to see that my weight is dropping off, which will be due to the copious amounts of water I'm drinking at work. Still training every morning before work (when we don't have a holiday at least), and working on improving my strength.

Haven't really spoken to Dad much over the past 24 hours, had wanted to get up early, just to catch up, but didn't wake up until 11. Basically it feels like any time when I don't have a time limit, I can sleep forever. Some days, like today, I wish I had.

Having trouble getting in contact with the psycologist, she's never there after 4pm, and I have no mobile signal at work, so i can never get in touch with her. Hopefully she'll ring after 4 tomorrow.

Anyways, it's 3pm, I'm sick of today, so I'm going back to bed, seems to be the only place where I can be relaxed.

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